SCRiBBLES

bluuegiraffe @ 2007-03-12T00:15:00

2007-03-12T04:39:57Z

FCUK. @#$&. FUKK. FUCK.

booooo, weekend to-do list:

~~Math109: Assignment #7~~
~~AFM102: read chapter 9~~ and 10
AFM102: Assignment #5
~~SPCOMM: finish self evaluation~~
~~SPCOMM: finish peer evaluation~~
CS100: finish Assignment 5a
CATCH UP ch12 and 13 && STUDY ECON102 'cause the midterm is Thursday

So, I can't handle the workload. And first year isn't even suppose to be that bad. Year 2 & 3 are suppose to KILL.

Ahhhh. So last Thursday night I had a midterm, and Friday night I had a midterm; then my loving parents came and picked me up to go home for the weekend. Didn't get home til like 9:30pm =(  and I did try to do some work, not very successful. A lot of family time and I only went out for a bit with friends Saturday night. And two of these friends, who I am sure were just trying to give good, honest, non-sugarcoated advice, suggested that I should just transfer out now, if I don't believe that I can make it all the way to fourth year.  Uhhhh, excuse me?

I was actually kinda pissed. Usually when all the Waterloo kids get together to whine and vent about how we may not make it into second year, there's a lot of reassuring and "don't worry, you'll pull through" kinda talks.  It's pretty rare to hear someone give advice that includes transferring out of a good program out of fear. So yes, I was somewhat pissed; I made it here somehow (also known as inflated high school marks); AFM is a fantastic program; the workload and pressure it a bitch and something they just won't understand. Anyhow, that was only enough to be motivation for an afternoon. Back to being really really scared. I can't even remember what it felt like to be angry again..

I don't know what this entry is about. I just needed to vent a bit.

annnnd, this has been on my mind for a while. but just a though, a secretary who works in a big firm can get paid a LOT. their job requires an education, but not a specialization.

disappointed

2007-02-23T06:10:40Z

Enough’s enough. I can’t keep thinking about the “what ifs” anymore. But I really don’t know what to do anymore. I know we’re done, I’ve known for a while, and that’s okay; but I guess I just never wanted to accept the fact that we’ll probably never get that closeness back again. I miss it. I’ve tried staying good friends with you, ignoring you, staying mad at you, cutting you out of my life, being okay friends... And none of that really matters. You claim that we’re “cool now”, and as much as I want to believe it, it’s still a bit awkward and we’re not okay – or at least I’m not okay.

I can’t believe how much you’ve changed. And I can’t believe it’s taken me this long to see it. I know that change is inevitable and people change all the time, but what bothers me is the kind of person you’ve morphed into. What happened to that funny, thoughtful, considerate guy that I could spend hours with? I used to be able to call you and talk about anything; you always made me laugh; when you told me everything was going to be okay, I believed you. But do you realize how much of a hypocrite you’ve become? Remember some of those fights we had about bad qualities in people you didn’t like? In my eyes, you’ve become one of those people.

For the longest time, I kept rationalizing everything you did ‘cause I didn’t want to believe that you were that kind of person. But I can’t do that anymore.

It may not seem fair, since I put up with those kinds of people on a daily basis, some of them are alright; but I can’t be around you when you’re one of them. Sometimes I put people on pedestals; I have certain expectations of them, and when they’ve strayed so far away from those expectations, I don’t know who they are anymore and I just don’t know how to deal with them. I suppose once I get away from you long enough (for real this time), and we ‘meet again’, things will be okay again.

2007 LUNARFEST FASHION SHOW promo =)

2007-02-20T18:09:15Z

omg, dieeee math

2007-02-13T02:26:06Z

i hate math.
&& i hate everything math related.
i hate stupid math109.
i hate how i'm in the 10am class and Green talks so effing S L O W, and therefore puts me to sleep.
i hate how FMM did not teach calc properly, therefore i'm struggling with the easy stuff now.
i hate the stairs the Math&Computing building have 'cause they're so steep.
i hate getting lost in MC every week i go to hand in my CS assignment.
i hate getting lost in MC for math tutorials everyweek.

arghh. i'm so glad i'm not a math major.

speechless.

2007-02-07T00:23:51Z

no pun intended. or maybe some. i dunno, it's been a while since i've blogged. there hasn't been that much going on since i've been nerding it up in waterpoo for so many weekends. but there's something so wrong with me. i should be working harder than ever right now, but over these past few days, i can't seem to find that extra boost of motivation. and if failing afm102 last friday isn't motivation, i don't know what is. i was suppose to give my informative speech this afternoon. i stayed up til almost 5am cause i didn't feel like finishing it or practicing it til 3am. skipped math109 this morning cause i really needed to sleep.

but i dodged a bullet today, cause i didn't end up speaking. but the circumstances for our spcom223 class cancellation wasn't exactly the greatest. the first speaker had panic attack or nervous breakdown of some sort. please don't laugh, it may seem funny, but watching it all in person wasn't. it was the scariest thing i've seen in a while. an ambulance was called; i left the building before EMS arrived. it was so unexpected. this person had such a presence and confidence just ouzed out of their voice during our first impromptu speeches a few weeks ago. i guess it just goes to show that anyone can break down.

maybe i'm going through a breakdown. physically, it's happening since i haven't been sleeping, eating junk food and haven't been to the gym in a week. mentally, i just don't know anymore. i was seriously 'evaluating' my life 2-3 weeks ago, then it got pushed aside cause i needed that brain capacity to study. i still need it to study. thats all for now.

----
edit: i DO realize that i've been complaining on LJ a lot (and in person). and yes know i shouldn't be complaining so much. no one held a gun to my head and said WATERLOO or DIE; i chose to come to a good program at a good school. if anything, i should have expected this.

*75*75*75*75*75*75*75*75*75*75*   that's all i need.

bluuegiraffe @ 2007-01-11T03:35:00

2007-01-11T08:36:08Z

I SHOULD NOT be up at this hour.
I SHOULD NOT have been streaming Degrassi, Prison Break and random YouTube videos at this hour.
I should have finished my damn spcom223 basic speech outline when it was assigned on Tuesday.
I should be getting BED REST because I'm sick and just rest in general cause my Thursday classes are horribly long and bunched (10am-5:20pm of classes, and a one hour lunch break).

anyways, I feel stupid. speech communications223 (public speaking) sounds like a bird course right? uhhh NO it's not. I'm the ONLY 1st year in my class =(  and I have an informative speech outline due in 9 hours, but I really don't know what to write about. The obvious occured to me that 1) as a 1st year, there really isn't anything new that I can inform my fellow classmates about; 2) I am an asian ditz - unfortunately, that won't work for me until the entertaining speech we need to prepare at the end of the term; 3) I think this is where I have to 'find myself'. 'cause it's a lot easier writing a speech on something I know really well.  [and shopping, boys and whatever other girly ditzy things are all topics I should avoid if I want to be taken seriously in that class].

&& random ramblings:
-- When my cartlidge hurt so badly a week ago, I was hurting [both were brought on my me]. Now it's better, I think. At least when I leave it alone and don't touch it by accident.
-- I'm still kind of lost right now.
-- I hoped for something, I think it might have happened or will happen in the not too distant future. And I hate that I hoped for it. I wanna ask questions about it, but I know I shouldn't.
-- Throwing myself into schoolwork is actually quite an effective way of keeping my mind off things. Fortunately/Unfortunately, weekends, breaks, girl talks all exist and so that means I do have to return to reality.

oh boxing day

2006-12-27T06:02:48Z

i have this love/hate relationship with boxing day. then again, i have a love/hate relationship with a lot of things these day. anyhow, for those of who worked in a retail clothing store, i feel SO BAD for you; especially if you had a closing shift.   my mom calculated that i spent about $350 today and i've been officially ordered to stop spending =[ BUTTT i bought soo many nice things at amazing prices. and i may have also started my boxing day shopping on the 24th too.... cause apparently the secret is that some stores are lazy and start putting up their sale signs early.

i'm so happy right now and it's not just from the shopping =)
time heals most wounds, and i guess enough time has passed for everything to just sorta/maybe(?) fall back into place.

and unfortunately, i will end on a negative story about bastard asian drivers or that one in particular that i encountered today. so mommy and i are finding a space at vaughan mills (it's about 11am, and I AM DRIVING ^__^) . we wait for a while and drive around quite a bit.  and finally there's someone coming who happens to be parked in our area and not wandering around aimlessly while searching for their vehical. i turn on my left signal and wait patiently. then this ASSHOLE who at first appears to be turning into the asile; (me thinking: fine whatever, just turn in and get outta my way cause i have to back in); asshole doesn't turn in, infact they leave their right signal on (and that parking space is on the asshole's LEFT SIDE) and they just kinda stay half turned in. ARGHH. FRIKKIN BASTARD STOLE MY SPACE.

THE NERVE OF HIM!! i beeped him when he did it too!! annnd, when he and ass ugly wife got out of the car, they went to walk on the other side of the parking lot. he's lucky that i'm too nice, or else i could have keyed his ugly van.

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-12-18T00:57:00

2006-12-18T06:01:41Z

DUN DUN DUN DONE!!

actually done last night, but was too sleepy to post. but yes, finally too.

I, Carmen Wong, vow to be the biggest nerd during my 1B term.
Exams can be so much easier and maybe even relaxing for those peole who went to all their classes and kept up with all of their work during the term. I wanna be like them!!! So feel free to call me out on this if I'm slacking off ever again.

I'm wondering..

2006-12-15T06:14:53Z

How strong must a person's will power or pure desperation to simply obtain a passing GPA, have to be, to keep them up studying?

[ Damn you Waterloo for being so hardcore, and booo me for not keeping up with the workload. Just two more days... and thank you for worrying about my health and telling me to sleep, but I plan to catch up on sleep soon... like on Sunday ]

& just because, should I redye my hair back to black? I hate black hair... but the brown is growing out and turning different blond-ish colors
&& two cartlidge piercings in the same ear or just add 4th holes to each lobe?

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-12-13T11:06:00

2006-12-13T16:06:22Z

I had this really bad dream about doing laundry, then falling into the dryer and shrinking. It's like Honey I Shrunk The Kids. I was like a helpless hamster running in the dryer so that I wouldn't let the clothes in the machine engulf me in their waves. I've had a dream/nightmare for the past few nights now

I'm tired; dreaming is a sign of too much brain activity during awakening hours.
My brain hurts; it's on management & econ overload; no room left for accounting, french or psych.

Why am I slowly killing myself like this?
argh, I've spent more time in the MKV study rooms than I have in my own room sleeping!!
I've spent more time studying for one bloody exam than I have for all my exams in high school.
I miss FMM.
I miss shopping.
I miss clubbing.
I miss drinking.
I miss working out.
& I'm hungry. && I got fat.

Okay, I am done whining. Must start accounting. & eat breakfast.

Damn you exams, just three more. Saturday December 16th, 10:01pm - I'm waiting for you!

watch it because i said so!

2006-12-06T08:18:03Z

wtf is wrong with one tree hill??!?!

2006-12-04T04:39:24Z

I've only watched up to 408 actually. (I was catching up on 407 and 408 on the ride back to Waterloo, so it wasn't taking away from my studying!!!! only my normal car napping!)

Anyways, since I am apart of the OTH group thingee, I get all the updates in my friend feed or whatever it's called. WTF. 409 is ruined for me, but nooo, I adore Brooke and Lucas together!!! (and I also adore Lucas for myself...)

This is much better....

Is it me or did Chad Michael Murray become very very blonde all of a sudden?
&& I was tearing during Whitey's speech when he accepted his lifetime achievement award; makes me wonder about how strong [first] love is and can be…

----- oooooOOOOoooo, I found the speeech -----
"You do realize we have one more game to play. Let me tell you, this award means a awful lot to me. I may have given a lifetime to this team but the players, the players have given me so much more. You know basketball was my first love and as most of you in here realize you don't forget your first love. My only regret is I can't share this wonderful moment with the other love of my life - my late wife, Camilla. Camilla was the only person who only fully understood me. Being with her made everything else seem less important. The moment I met her I knew that I was looking at my future and I knew that no person could ever come between us. I know Camilla would have liked this group of boys. I want to thank them and I want to thank all of you for allowing me to spend a lifetime with my first love."

okay okay, enough time wasted. back to work. =(

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-12-03T11:57:00

2006-12-03T16:57:34Z

FCUK YOU UNIVERSITY. arghhh, I hate school so much there isn't a swear word invented to describe my hatered for it.

So I bought my very first eye cream today, in preparation for my non-sleep zombie-ness that is to come. & to maybe preseve my looks just a bit, so I can be a decent looking trophy wife once I fail out of school.

I miss my girls and my boys. I miss summer. I miss high school. I miss elementary school. I miss preschool. I miss those carefree days when I didn't feel so hopeless.  I miss the days when I used to believe in myself.

I'm awaiting Saturday December 16th, 10:01pm. Then I can breathe, relax and sleep for a bit.

OMG, OMG OMG =D

2006-11-21T02:19:22Z

GUESS WHO'S GOING TO BE A MODEL!!!!

your's truly, that's who!

HELL YES, 5'3¼ RUNWAY MODELS DO EXIST

arghhh

2006-11-19T22:13:43Z

if it required a miracle in just my imaginary world, that's definitely a sign that it had almost no chance of it working out in real life.

i should have just blocked and deleted him before this weekend.
$@%^$%&#@#^#$^#$@@#$@#$

i completely understand if people are mad, but if that's what it took to strike up a suppose-to-be-normal conversation, then it was just beyond repair, something i should have figured out a while ago...

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-11-13T03:26:00

2006-11-13T08:26:19Z

“What if someone’s behaviour really hurts you? Research suggests that the age old response of forgiveness may be what the doctor ordered. Without letting the offender off the hook or inviting further harm, forgiveness releases anger and can clam the body…As students mentally rehearsed forgiveness, their negative feelings – and their perspiration, blood pressure, heart rate and facial tension – all were lowered when they rehearsed their grudges.” – pg539

Chapter 13 of psych was about emotion, and apparently this is the thing to do on LJ today.
So here goes: my flashbulb memories...

à Finally getting each other’s msn and phone #’s after going to the same high school for 3½ years

à You always calling my cell for data help and hoping for more, but me just thinking you wanted to leech off me for hwk

à First time we went for pool, You showing me “the spear” and me actually kicking your ass =p

à Your oh so random text messages =)

à Many walks home and just getting to know each other

à Building the Great Wall of China & admiring your determination about it

à International Night - chair sharing

à You teaching me data when I was lost

à The subtle, non-pressured way You asked me to Prom =)

à Calling you from work when I was bored

à Gr12 retreat to Muskoka – playing signal =)

à Muskoka – truth or dare: You kissing me twice “cause the first one missed”

à Bus ride home from Muskoka – falling asleep on your shoulder =)

à The cold that I started – which continually circulated between You, Me, Heather & Ryan

à You getting too sick to sleep & our late night phone calls because of it

à You and Heather visiting me at work then going to pick out my corsage

à The night You called me for a walk – and all I could talk about was my car accident

à The way you took care of prom details when I was too stressed

à Worrying all day about your reaction to what I did at the Prom After Party and wondering what it meant since I cared so much about what You would think

à Feeling uneasy when you were okay with it; “you were drunk” [that shouldn’t have been an excuse]

à More good talks on the phone until a week later, You said You weren’t okay with it

à Calling Bojan right after that and crying a bit

à Your Friendster msg saying You wanted to cram data together

à Our friendship magically healing itself

à Grad After Party – the blair witch video: quite the night to remember

à Random phone calls at all hours of the day & walks in the park

à Coming over to your house and making You watch chick movies

à You annihilating me at pool @ Mix2, then taking the “scenic route” to Destiny’s. Bubble tea and me destroying You at speed. Then staying till 3am and waiting for Ryan, “our saviour” =)

à Going to Ryerson & the Eaton’s Centre with You, Raph and Joanna

à You calling me the day after Ryan’s BBQ about some [verystupid] issues; us deciding that maybe we needed some space

à Calling You a week later only to find out your answer to things to be “Iunno”

à 3 weeks since the fight, Bojan’s Party – apparently our drunkenness was enough to forget about all the shit happened between us

à Phone calls again =)

à You coming over to my house to uhhh, fix my computer and watch movies

à Shopping with You, Ryan and Orlena @ P-mall for guy clothes and @ Home Depot for the Aquarium supplies; then starting [and probably never finishing] that aquarium

à Woodbine Beach with everyone – volleyball and lots of poserific pictures =)

à Seeing You at the park while I was babysitting my cousins and not wanting to say a proper hello because I didn’t want my little cousins teasing me about You =)

à You coming back from camping and telling me something that changed my perception of you

à Things falling slightly apart and me being confused and too afraid to ask you what We were anymore

à You coming back from L.A. and whatever we had seemed to suddenly disappear

à That night @ The Docks – both of us tipsy at most, You held my hand through the crowds and You held me =)

à [You later said you did that because you thought I wanted it; I did, but I guess you didn’t want it the way I did]

à My (and Bruce’s) Last Night in TO dinner – You called afterwards, I missed your call by accident; I called back. Twice. And you didn’t pick up. You didn't call in the morning either. We didn’t get closure.

à Waterloo Frosh Week – I missed You like crazy; when I finally got the courage to call You, I knew what you were going to tell me wasn’t something I would have liked to hear, but I needed to hear that from You, no matter how much it hurt.

à [I probably should have cut you out to speed the healing process, but I was weak and lonely here]

à Ryerson Night @ the Docks – your (possibly unintentional) hurtful words and stupid actions that night sealed it.

à I didn’t take your phone call the next morning, maybe I should have…
à I stayed strong and didn't give in to the urge to call you; I thought I was over you

à Three weeks later, your surprise birthday party – I came and even asked a magic 8 ball whether or not you wanted me there; “signs point to yes”

à But we didn’t even talk, only when Ryan sent me to ‘check up’ on You and you were probably too drunk to realize you were actually talking to me
à Appearances are decieiving. Contrary to what You may think, I haven't moved on. But your actions have made it clear that You don't want to have anything to do with me anymore; so I guess this is it.

End of Story.

& it was a long story too. He’s been such a big part of my life these past few months; an awesome friend and I don’t know if I’ll ever find someone that makes me laugh the way he did. Trying to close these chapters of my life has been ridiculously hard. But it’s something I have to do.

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-11-12T15:36:00

2006-11-12T20:36:00Z

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-11-10T12:56:00

2006-11-10T17:56:21Z

So I’m not ready yet.
I tried to persuade myself - realistically too, that I might be ready or that I was almost there, but I’m not.

It really bothers me and scares me how I’m still not 100% okay. I can’t figure out why either; I’m over it. I’ve moved on (sorta); but it's not the same. It’s pathetic since we don’t even talk anymore. There’s no reason why I should still be lingering over something that isn’t even there anymore. Just go away. please. I hate this feeling. And I wish I could hate you for making me feel like this; I wish that I could forget you and everything that's ever happened (but I don't want to); I wish whatI feel now would make a difference; I wish I could stop lying to myself.

I miss you. I miss us. It’s not fair.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you

[When did I become so emo?]

DONE (but only for a week..)

2006-11-03T19:36:18Z

October was just plain ugly.

November looks much nicer! Less red is good =)

December... YIKES.
my exam schedule is just brutal.

[ yes i have gotten too lazy to type things out, so i just take really ghetto pictrures ]

i'm soo EXCITED for this weekend. i plan do to NO WORK at all, and i shouldn't feel bad about it since i am sorta ontop of things and no tests or midterms =D

mall time now!
then nap time
then PARTY TIME!! i haven't gotten wasted in sooo long, and i deserve it after those long weeks.

econ101 applied to REAL LIFE.

2006-10-29T22:09:42Z

sunk costs are costs that have already been incurred and cannot be recovered to any significant degree.
my econ prof (who is going to fail me) says to never count a sunk cost, because while it did have a value at some point in time, it does not have one now;
never make a judgment on what has been invested, only on present and future cost benefits.

now to my interpretation, where i can show off my econ101 application skills...

sunken relationships are [good] associations with another that have occurred, but cannot be recovered;
never count on a sunken relationship, because while it did have significant meaning at some point in time, it does not have one now;
don't allow the sunken relationship to affect decisions, it was the past, it's time to move on and focus on the present and future.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
seriously, econ101 makes me wanna cry.
study break over.
back to head scratching since i don't understand anything...

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-10-24T16:15:00

2006-10-24T20:26:23Z

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
~~To turn and run~~ when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
~~I'd rather run the other way than~~ stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on your mind
He's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could ~~disengage~~
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on your mind
He's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on your mind
He's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on your mind
He's on your mind

Everyone knows
He's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on your mind
He's on your mind

************************

{ side note: it's gotta suck to be Jojo, the girl next to me; our walls are paper thin and i've had this on repeat for the past two days }
Hopefully this is all just because of the stress from midterms and lack of sleep.

SongOfTheMoment

2006-10-18T03:43:00Z

listen & download:
http://www.zshare.net/audio/do_whatcha_gotta_do_bonus_track-www-fetchmesome-blogspot-com-mp3.html

It's been a minute since you left me
Out here on my own
And I'd never felt this empty
Since I been alone
And the silence is louder than any fight we've ever had before
You don't even know
The time for night to turn to morning
Never took this long
And there's nothing to take from me
Cause you're already gone
Bein hurt for a while's how I'll get over you

So keep callin me names, babe
Tell everyone I'm crazy
Do whatcha gotta do
To forget bout me and you
If it's easier to hate me
Then go on have your way babe
Do whatcha gotta do
To forget bout me and you

I can't remember to forget you
Whenever there's another
I accidently just compare you
But they don't measure up
Every mile that I steer
Every song that I hear is a memory of you
Please leave me alone
And no matter what
Please don't regret all the times you
Pretend you don't see me
It's pathetic I try to despise you
Just like you do with me
Love just don't disappear especially when it's true

So keep callin me names, babe
Tell everyone I'm crazy
Do whatcha gotta do
To forget bout me and you
If it's easier to hate me
Then go on have your way babe
Do whatcha gotta do
To forget bout me and you

Sometimes it takes you feel you've died to know you really are alive in here
And I'd trade my soul
Just to wake up from
This nightmare they all say is my life now
Baby I don't wanna make it all harder for you
But I love you like crazy if you gotta hate me
Then do what you gotta do

So keep callin me names, babe
Tell everyone I'm crazy
Do whatcha gotta do
To forget bout me and you
If it's easier to hate me
Then go on have your way babe
Do whatcha gotta do
To forget bout me and you

a much prettier wall =)

2006-10-06T03:58:20Z

less cork and more poserific pictures

and just because, my favorite poster

okay i should really start studying for those midterms i have comming up now....
no more facebook or LJ until after Tuesday 10:01pm

I'm in Love && Ridiculously Happy...

2006-10-04T03:09:38Z

with my new JUICY COUTURE BAG.

who or what else would it be with??!?
{although it's a tad ironic how i no longer believe in the statement my bag so boldly states}

ahhh, i'm soo happy!
happy early birthday and merry christmas to me!!

econ101's three hour lecture bores me a bit, so i did a little web-window shopping while was in class....

and i think i need a new wallet too. and a new book bag and more but i am too lazy to upload all the pics to a server.

<3 JUICY COUTURE

on a side and more serious note, turkey dumping season is apparently in full effect. i may consider a minor in psychology after this week. stay together people! it makes me sad to hear all these possible breakup stories

bluuegiraffe @ 2006-10-02T17:03:00

2006-10-02T21:32:27Z

--> I had a really nice reflection in my head from the ride back to waterloo on Sunday night, but I haven't turned on my laptop til early Monday evening to type it out, so I've forgotten quite a bit of it...

anyhow.

--> It was literally BirthdayBirthdayBirthday this weekend.  [ I know that I am really really behind on birthday presents, and I'm sorry. I'll get them all when I have the time to carefully and thoughtfully pick something out ]
--> It was great to see everyone again at Gilbert's surprise party. loserr better appreciate those of us who bussed our way back to TO on a weekend when they should have stayed in waterloo. it's more funn to drink with you guys!! next time, we play more drinking games.
--> Sarah, I'm glad you picked Wasabi. I've had sushi cravings for a while now.   && I'll work on my "asian redness" so that I won't turn red after my vodka&sprite
--> My little cousin Nikki turns 8 today actually, but we celebrated with them over dim sum brunch on Sunday. Oh how time flys, my mommy was the one who bought her present, and I thought the clothes she bought would be too big [ when it was really just right ]. Wish I could have spent more time with them, but I had to go home and do some readings =(   I hate school.

RandomThoughts && ReflectionTime
-- > 97% okay and where I need to be ; 3% still lingering. that sucks.
-- > Sometimes I forget how s l o w I am. && I'm weak too. I can trick myself temporarily into believing whatever I need to, but what it all comes down to is I still need some time to recover from everything. it's dumb too, since everytime I'm forced a few steps forward, I always take that one little step back.
-- > umm, some awkardness this weekend; a little was expected, just not like this. tipsy-ness is a great for coping with that. =)
-- > res is like a big sleepover. I am desperately in need of someone to oppose a curfew on me.
-- > girl talks are nice, whether at 1am or 12pm when called. Remember that I'm always there for you girls!!

okay, studying and hwk time. I have a fear of failing out of waterloo, but I just can't study or read. arghhh.